Drug and alcohol addictions during the 90’s really messed about with my creative output. I spent a few years busking while indulging with substances. I thoroughly enjoyed busking, but eventually my addictions took over, became all consuming, and killed and creativity I had. I ended up selling my guitar to fund my addictions,. Life for me, and those around me, got pretty dark.
I found recovery in 1998 and immersed myself in various 12 step fellowships. I no longer attend meetings but 12 step philosophy remains a cornerstone of my life. I dabbled with writing at varying times throughout my recovery, but due to the busyness of life my creative pursuits often ended up on the back burner. What I lacked was a definite motivation, a reason to create. This changed when I read Lonely Boy by Steve Jones. There is a passage in the narrative where Steve talks about his career, his recovery, and his mental health. He was trying to achieve success and critical acclaim after The Sex Pistols, and it was a massive struggle for him. Steve ended up concluding that doing something creative was an end in and of itself. Put simply, being involved in a creative process made him a happier person. This for me was a light bulb moment, and I took to creating again with a passion.
So, I started writing seriously in 2017. In 2023 I got myself a nice new guitar and started making music again. I will admit, I’m not 100% sure why I decided to share my work with the world, I guess I just wanted to see if I could. Earning a bit of pocket money from my work is but a side benefit, but it is of course all very much appreciated.